SOME OF THESE DAYS, YOU’LL MISS ME HONEY
“Some of these days, you’ll miss me honey” is a constellation of memories, places, feelings like a stream of consciousness where pictures developed an intimate dialogue with myself that I started writing more than 10 years ago. I needed to make this project to rewrite the first part of my life, to be able to give it a meaning, sewing up many broken bonds and complete a sort of catharsis.
I think I’ve been a highly sensitive person for most of my live and it was terrifying not knowing what to fear because you knew you would suffer anyway.
I felt almost in a perennial Hegelian Pantragismo, where nostalgia and melancholy were my best friends. I’ve never known what was the light-heartedness of youth and that’s probably why I struggled so hard to get along with my peers at that time.
These images embrace difficult years in which through photography I learned how to look outside and look at me without any sense of guilt. There wasn’t any rational reason why I felt so estranged from my family and my hometown, but painting at first and then photography helped me to get through this void. I didn’t know how to belong and photography was my bridge to establish a connection with the present.
Photography let me disappear into that framed space where I slipped in looking for a purpose.
While I shoot everything stopped putting my constant insecurities on hold, everything is so silent, and I felt like I exist. There is a lot of silence in these photos, a noisy silence that still resonates today in my way of seeing.
It is a project developed on different level of personal and cognitive meanings. The title itself is a form of quotation to an author that was crucial to my growth, it is taken from a song remembered in the last part of Sartre’s book ‘La Nausea’, a book where for the first time I recognized expressed in words what I felt for so long. A work on reappropriation of familiar spaces I perceived for so long as uncanny landscapes, imprisoned by a suspended time where everything seemed to be the same for years. Instead, I’ve always felt moved by urban scenes without any identity like intimate rooms with the inability to communicate one’s discomfort. I tried to paint those loneliness atmospheres through colours as strong protagonist to express emotions.
This project, born as an “escape”, over time has been transformed into an increasingly conscious research, mixing the meaningless noise of modernity so fascinating and disturbing at the same time with private memories and cinematic frames to rebuild my personal narrative.